Im mentally preparing myself....

I KNOW that it is coming...

Tobey's wound is worse than before. If that is even possible. There is even some necrotic tissue. It makes me physically ill to look at it. Just the thought that we spent SO MUCH time trying to heal that thing and had gotten SO CLOSE to be healed up to be BACK TO THE BEGINNING makes me so upset!

Tobey has had wounds here and there all his life, but NOTHING like what we have been battling this past year. This thing is relentless. It will NOT go away.... It won't. I just want to fall to the ground and cry...

I can't do another HUGE hospital stint again. I can't. The last one about killed me.... :(