Progression....

When mom first passed, I thought of her ALL THE TIME.
EVERY DAY
Honestly, there were not many moments that went by that I did not think of her. I wondered if my life was always going to be like that.



It was a sad, dark time in my life. I struggled through each and every day. Pushed through. Smiled for the sake of my children, but inside was dying. Longed for the company that I had with my mom. Just that voice to talk to. That adult presence in the house. Wondered when/if it would ever pass....

This past weekend, I realized something. Things have changed. I no longer cry EVERY day. While I still think of my Mom every day, I have moved to a different stage. A happier place. I have moved to the place where I am remembering and talking about all of the happy times. Sure, I still have my moments. I cry now and then. But, they are FAR LESS than they used to be. I have found people, and activities to occupy my time. It is so nice.



I am now in a brighter, happier place. A place where Mom is still with me, but not just in a sad, mourning way. Mom is my inspiration in so many ways and I am happy that I am now to a point where I can honor her instead of just miss her!

Anxious.....

I am so very anxious for our friends to arrive....
They will be here in less than 3 weeks and it cannot come soon enough!
J and I are so connected. It really is hard to put into words. When J and her family are around, I smile. :). The kids seem to really enjoy each others company, J and I enjoy each others company, and things just go well!
So, lots to do....
Fun coming soon!!!!:)

Summer is Here!

I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy that summer is FINALLY here! This year, I was struggling a bit with NEEDING my summer break. I am not quite sure WHY, but I REALLY did! I taught the same program that I always do and enjoyed it just as much, but I yearned for my summer something awful! :(

So, am going to try to suck EVERY ounce out of the next 5 weeks that I can. Because, I know ALL TO WELL that I will blink and it will be over!

Ouch....

I have a UTI AGAIN! I am just SOOO tired of getting these. When I was young, I NEVER had one. In the past couple of years, I have had several! I do not know WHAT the deal is? I have not changed my lifestyle any. No s*x (that is hysterical to even type :P), no massive exercising (actually NONE lately), etc. I just do NOT get it??? What is the most bothersome is that they come on soooo fast and then are so painful! :0 It is just unfair! I just had a few back to back in the fall. The doc said that id I got another one soon, she was referring me to a urologist. But, that was October or November...

Then, to make matters worse, I call my doctor to get in and on antibiotics yesterday (Tuesday) and am told that the next available appointment is Thursday at 1:45! Yea... I have to "deal" with this till Thur. Oh, they did tell me that I could go to the ER if the pain got too bad. Yea. Like I am going to pay a $150 co-pay to the ER for a UTI. NOT happening! I just went and paid $6 for AZO. Thank you very much! The AZO helps, but I am still miserable.... :(

REALLY NEED a change....

I am at THAT point in my job that I NEED a change.

I really have been for a long time, but have tried to look the other way and keep myself occupied with other things. Starting up clubs and helping out wherever I am needed at work. Going above and beyond to do what is asked and expected.

Well, I have reached my breaking point. Yea. It HAS happened. I have reached the point where I will do/take no more...I am tired. I am done. I can be abused/neglected NO MORE.

I will try no more. No more attempting to SUCK UP to people for the HOPE of what it MIGHT get me later. I have learned that it gets me NOTHING. I seem to get NOWHERE. So, what is the point? Why should I make myself crazy for NOTHING?

Like everyone around me, I will do ONLY WHAT IS REQUIRED and not a bit more.

Saddest part is that doing for others used to bring me pleasure, but I have been used and abused so many times now that it now does nothing but cause heartache... :(

Bet You Never Knew....

That I was a plumber!

Yup! I am... Officially, I believe that I can now state that I am a plumber! NOT by choice might I add...

Yesterday, Tylor calls me at work to tell me that the water is pouring out of the back tank of the toilet. Fabulous. I tell him to turn the water off below the toilet. He tells me that he has tried, but it will NOT shut off. Even better! So, I rush home. Water is gushing everywhere... It takes me a good hour to find the valve to shut off the water to the entire house, but I find it. I then go to Home Depot to purchase the part that needs to be replaced which is the pump that is NOT registering when the tank is full. As I am replacing this and trying to screw on the hose, I break the plastic valve on the hose! Water spurting everywhere AGAIN!!! Now, I have to figure out WHAT to do. Call my plumber friend. Busy. Call a plumbing service. All plumbers booked till midnight! So, I look and look. Study and study some more as I am sitting in a pool of water of the bathroom floor. I have a Master's degree. Surely this is not beyond my intelligence level. I figure HOW to remove the hose, take it up to Home Depot and get a new one, install it and turn the water back on.

THERE!!!!

Only took me 3 hours, LOTS of cuss words, TONS of crying, but by God, I DID it! Now, the water still won't turn off by the toilet, but that is OK, for now.

Promethean Set-Up