Holy Crap!

I am not exactly certain what/where it happened, but these young people that I interact with on a daily basis have lost their minds! I am really NOT kidding. This is a serious matter. We still have like 3 weeks of school left and they are absolutely bonkers! It started yesterday with the 5th graders, and now today with the 6th.... This is going to make for a hellacious end of the year!!!! There is so much to get done between now and the end. The stress of dealing with crazy, apeshit kids is the LAST thing that I need.... Please let things calm down. I cannot deal with this!!!

It's Been a While

Let's see... Things, AS ALWAYS, have been NUTTY here... I have been through a host of health problems for myself which is NOT the norm... First, they saw a "mass" at my annual check-up which was like 5 years overdue. Scared the crap out of me for a week until it was confirmed that it was a large cyst. That was the positive news. The bad news was that, based on the issues that I have been having, combined with the cyst, a hysterectomy was recommended. And, because of my c-sections and multiple pregnancies, I do not get to have a nice laparoscopic one. :( I have to have my c-section incision opened again Fun times... This past week, I had a tooth pulled. Again, not a simple pulling of a tooth. No. This tooth was infected all the way up to my sinus cavity and had to be pulled by an oral surgeon under general anesthesia for fear that the novacaine would NOT work. Yes, fun times again. It was actually quite pleasant to have a tooth removed this way. Wish I was able to have all of the teeth that I have had pulled out done like that. However, it is prohibitivily expensive. So, NOT going to happen....

I Just Cannot Believe Some People....

When I made the choice to become a mother, I believe that I made the choice to put my OWN needs on the backburner for a good amount of time. My children became my priority. I now considered them FIRST when I did things and I no longer thought about what I needed as being priority...

I am often shocked to find other mothers who do NOT feel the same way... :( These women have a child/ren and yet still feel that their personal needs are superior. It saddens me to watch it. I observed it with V who always put herself first while she was raising 2 kids and it was so sad.... :(

I see it now with A. How can you possibly continue to meet people online and then up and MOVE to locations ACROSS THE COUNTRY to shack up with these people that you have met?? More over, allow your son to be involved in this? A did this 2X when she came to Houston and is now doing it again to go to VA. I think she is insane! Her poor son... :( This kid has been diagnosed by qualified people as being on the spectrum. However, she has yet, since his diagnosis at almost 4, to do 1 thing to assist him with HIS needs. She has not even shared his diagnosis with his school! :0So, this poor kid has had to try and cope without the assistance that he so deserves....All she has done is concern herself with finding a mate. Each time, poor P is allowed to get attached to these people only to be terribly upset (I am sure) when the relationship ends. How can he NOT be? He is just a kid....Throughout all of this, A is so proud of herself. Proud of what? Proud of no job? Proud of finding yet another person who will allow both her and her son to live off of them? Proud of the fact that she is quitting school again? Proud of the fact that she pulled her son out of school for a month so she could go have a conjugal visit with her girlfriend because she just could not wait till the summer? Give me a break!

When will these people step up and actually be the parents that these poor kids deserve? My question is this: How are these kids going to turn out???? Scary thought...

Clear as mud....

What was so clear just two months ago. Not so much now...

Gosh, I don't know. It is so very frustrating. I was so sure that I KNEW the path that we were going to go down and that it was the exactly right one...

Then, things went completely downhill with Tobey and I was facing a new perspective on our life and where it was headed. Now, I am not so certain that the decisions that I thought were perfect are...

I don't like this. I want to know WHERE things are headed. I need a plan...

For now, I am going to step back. Let life just lead the way. Pray hard, and hope that the waters of clarity will come in and wash the mud away....

Head over and help if you can....

The family at the blog above is a wonderful family.... They have already adopted 4 kiddos and are now adopting a 14 year-old in desperate need of a speedy rescue. They are currently holding a dundraiser with awesome prizes. Head over and give if you are able.

Any little bit helps!

Just Do Not Know Anymore

This is just crazy...

I thought that I was so sure about what I wanted and where my life was headed in the upcoming year or two. I was fairly certain about most things.

Or so I thought....

Things have just been wild in the last couple of weeks. My emotions go UP and DOWN. One day I am thinking one way. The next, I am thinking the opposite.... I just don't understand? I am not usually confused about my life and where it is headed. I am not even sure where this is coming from and I do NOT like it. I am doubting everything that I thought that I was doing in the next year or two.

I need some clarity, and I need it now.....

RIGHT NOW!

Thankful for E

Well, after the HUGE amount of stress that V caused me yesterday when she waltzed in and told me that she could no longer help me out, I found a replacement in E...

I am so thankful for E. She has come through for me when I had no one else. Something that I did not expect which is nice. I just hope that this works out. If not, I do NOT have anyone else to ask and do NOT know what I will do??

This is the last remaining thing that my mother dying has left me with trying to figure out...Mom did this and it was so easy...