Being an SMC that is....Don't get me wrong. I LOVE being a Mom. It is what I do best. It is what I have ALWAYS wanted. But, honestly, I just HATE being alone. I just do.....I love the part of being my kids only parent and not having to share my parenting with anyone else, but the alone part sucks for me...Maybe because I was never really alone. I don't know... Whatever it is. I HATE it. My Mom has been gone for 2 years and it just still seems no easier...It could be my lack of family, my weak support structures, etc.
I am not sure. I just know that I still have moments when I drive home from work and just WISH that I had an adult to sit and chat with. Nothing special. I am not longing for a hot date (though that would not be bad either :)). Just another intellectual adult to sit down and talk about my day with. When things are shitty at work, it would be really nice to be able to have someone to REALLY vent to... Typing it out on facebook just isn't the same.
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I completely understand this, and have been feeling the same way lately. I have been married/ parterned at times, and there was a great feeling of togetherness, at times. The problem is, in all my fantasies about having someone around, I only think of all the positives. I never think of the cheating, bad behavior, or any of the other crap. All that aside, I think it would be great to find someone who could be a friend/ sig other. Are there any singles groups at church? I know being a mom makes things a lot harder, but it can be done (or so I've heard). I know that when my mom is gone, I'll be going through this too. I wish for you someone nice and kind to share your days with. Hugs...
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